a musing: derivations of a non-conformist idealist

a musing: derivations of a non-conformist idealist

Friday, May 12, 2006

Sweet sorrows

Nov. 18, 2001

Saddening-- some good things never last, some don’t even start, and some we never notice.

It’s frustrating how things we eventually hold dear or begin to love or would want to keep, we lose or give up. There always comes a time when we have to make a choice or worse, when we have none at all. Nothing lasts. Everything dies or is destroyed. And by this knowledge, one either picks at everything in the path or chooses which is truly worth cherishing. Both aspire for happiness and contentment but they are as ever-changing as the wind’s direction.

The ‘sampler’ tries everything or at least almost everything at least once because one’s life is inversely proportional to the multitude of new things to discover. To the ‘sampler’, there can be no failure in life because lessons are learned from all experiences. In contrast is the ‘seeker’ who tries to find only the things and events that are instinctively, almost perfectly suited. In that, there can also be no failure for the quest in itself honors one’s life greatly.

And then, some things are given no chance to be realized at all, even for the smallest amount of time. Circumstances would not permit it. One may long for a love or for a toy or for other desires but these things will remain something to long for. One gains insight to the fact that however hard one labours, no fruit shall be borne. It would seem like quitting to stop trying but there are instances when it is wiser to just move on. To displace the intense feeling over the object would be difficult but at least it offers some room for growth versus a situation wherein one tries to endure a self-inflicted, prolonged agony over an unattainable goal.

Finally, there are things that we do not even notice are there for our eyes are focused on other things. We are distracted into not seeing some things which could prove to be more useful to or more fulfilling for us. Throughout our lives, we develop preferences for things we want and completely disregard the possibility for other things. In this blindness, we lose rare and more precious items forever.

Love, life, nothing lasts but we can cherish things we have while they are ours to have, we can move on from staring at or pushing against immovable walls, and we can open our eyes to the rest of the world, learning as we go or going as we have learned.

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